So goes the first line of Mott the Hoople’s “All The Young Dudes.” Having just turned “a quarter of a century,” as my girlfriend and mom kept saying on Saturday, it’s weird to think that I’m definitely not a teenager or in college anymore. All that now feels far enough behind me to think that I’m “on my own.”

I guess I feel like a real twenty-something now, which is weird. I get up, go to work, come home and play guitar and video games, see my girlfriend, and repeat. It’s not exactly where I expected to be after college, but it’s apparently normal. What I’m feeling however, is that I need some more fulfillment. I want to be able to make music and play shows and all that, but I’ve been feeling pretty dried up musically lately. I need to get that back.

As far as my writing goes, I haven’t gotten myself a writing gig, so instead I’m working on a screenplay that’s starting to take shape. Even if I’m only on the first draft, it feels good to be working creatively like this. I’m surprised I haven’t lost interest in the project. Sometimes I have a hard time working by myself on these things but for now I’ve got the steam for it.

I’m just feeling washed up musically, and I really want to snap out of it. Something’s got to happen, I’ve just got to make it happen.

  1. meghanaucoin reblogged this from iancat87 and added:
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  2. haunted-by-you said: All of us are unfortunately feeling the same way in the postgrad world. I love my job, but I feel unfilled because I should be doing something additional with writing and/or music. Too bad neither will pay my bills.
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